Changing my image

I've been over weight my whole like. I started college about 3 years ago and ever since then my weight has increased and today I realized that I don;t like going out because I dread having to look through my closet and looking for clothes that fits. Not to mention all my pants are ripped from my inner thighs rubbing together. Its so depressing, I have no pants to wear. When I do go to the store they don;t have pants just skirts or leggings. I like leggings but I'm scared they might be see-though. Lately I've been wearing work out pants and work out clothes in general. I try to go to the gym but the only time i can go is at night and I don't like asking from my apartment to the gym at night. The gym is only less than 10 minutes away from my house. I have no reason why not to go. I've been trying to lose weight since Feb 14, 2014 and I lost 3 pounds since then but to day I weighed myself and i'm back to by old weight. (240lb) I added my weight so you get an idea of how big I am. I am tall so I don't look huge but in my eyes I don't like the way I look and I really want to change.
Also I left my blog for a good couple of months but I'm back at it again. I keep you posted on my workouts and progress and my young adult like.
with lots of love
Blossom xoxo

Let me start by introducing myself, my name is Blossom. Yea I now, odd name but I'll explain my name later. I am a third year college student who is realizing that growing up isn't what I pictured it to be. I created this blog to bring something new into my life and I feel that doing so will help me just vent about my boring life and for you who are reading my blogs to grow with me.  On my blog I will be talking about sex, money, school, family, love, health, and social life which includes friends. I've been growing into adult hood little by little. But this summer seemed like I took a giant step into being an adult. My time frame for my blog will be from graduating high school to where I am today. Of course I will be mentioning life current events that are happing to me today.